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Truth revealed, causing family split
ill feeling caused through greed
Anger is a natural reaction
but i must not allow it to consume me
I must forgive, for my own sanity
as she is family
though she did the wrong
i cannot blame her children/my cousins
as my love for them has not changed
Forgiving her is for her children's sake
As i wouldn't have been able to
but i love them and i don't want to lose them
so i must for their sakes
or i will remain stuck in the past with unhealed hurts
so forgiving is easy forgetting it is not possible
As the memories of pain remains with the heart
forever scared
Truth won in the end, but parting of the ways
was the outcome
When it is a stranger it doesn't hurt as much
but when they are your blood relative
it hurts like hell
Now she stands on the outside, looking in
while i remain asking why?
why did u put the blame on me?
why was money more important then me?
why did u continue to lie?
You got caught and u continued to lie
is your need for your own selfish needs
more important to you
When i was young i looked up to u
now i can only look down upon u
Your need for money made u blind
and now u must reap your rewards
that have only brought u misfortune
Did u think of the pain that u would cause me?
and if u did care why did u do it anyway?
your material riches will not last
as they are slowly but surely being taken away from u
Was it really worth it?
did u enjoy yourself?
and are u happy?
I know your not, as your features are becoming distorted
your being is showing physical discomfort
your life is crumbling
I can only pity u
though I've been told to hate u
but i can't
all i can do is forgive u
in time i may love u again
but will u ever be able to look me the in the eye
without flinching
without remembering
u turn away in shame
as i look at u
your guilt comes shining through
you avoid my gaze
are u afraid of what u will see
u should be
as i cannot help my feelings from showing
as pain last longer
Judge gave her verdict
and u gained nothing
and lost everything
and i gained respect for standing my ground
you lost all for greed
and i regained all that i had lost and more
the moral of this
is to not put greed ahead of loved ones
it is not worth it in the end
as u end up alone
depressed and unhappy
I forgive u
but i my heart won't forget
Auntycc
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especially when u thinking 'bout her children n ur cousin's sakes
plus makes u more aware n careful when dealing with someone even he/she's ur family..
everyone can be blinded by money, the only thing that can avoid it is just hv a strong stance
let it be her burden, not urs
it is a burden that has weighed me down for a very long time
that i can't help but want to slap her and pity her at the same time
my mind decided not to love her but my heart won't stop
so i must compromise and be there for her kids as they are suffering the shame
thanks for your concern it is very appreciated and it lets me heal more
thanks again friend cc
u r right, just follow ur conscience, it always be the best way to solve ur problem or tell what u must decided
np!
but its better to let go of hate or it will make me sick if i let it fester
thanks again
u hv choose the better way for urself
np!
love mia
finally got a bit of stress out
family suck sometimes
i just had to let off some steam again
lesson for my aunty is a lonely one
it will take time to heal
as its taken 14years to finally get a resolution
happy i am not
as everyone loses
sadly, it is my mom and brother who have been extremely cruel to me all my life. sad the extremes my "mother" has gone to .( i was told since birth , that i was a mistake, not planned).
she left me to me victimized since age 4y/o, and knowingly allowed my brother to beat me daily until i was old enough to hit him back so hard that he never hit me again. ( but he Pimped me off to teenage boys since an early age. and i fled to another state . i was thriving there. but upon return to my mom's about 2 years ago, i found out much more. then i was locked in his basement and starved, with no electric, no heat, no ionternet, no phone, and everyday, he removed one lightbulb of a total # of 15. i got the police to let me out, ( when there were only two lightbulbs left. and he kept all all of my things. my mom, says that i told him i could keep my stuff!!!. she never comments on my tale of imprisonment in his basement, despite the police report that i got.!!
she hates me so much for being born.
she loves only my brother, whom she bought a home for and blatently worships.
she has two homes, ( a summer and a winter one.) one of them is always empty while she uses the other.
after i fled to florida, and finished my cancer treatments, ( she never once asked me how i was)
- my apartment lease was not renewed, leaving me homeless. so i moved here to chicago, and rent a small room for the same cost as my apartment in florida. also, i could not afford to take what furniture i had left, so i had to leave it behind. so i am here, with the clothes on my back.
- i have ended up like the person who seems to have done harm to you.
i question myself relentlessly as to what did i do to have this happen?
- i honestly have not caused anyone harm, and have suffered much at the hands of predators, family, and thieves.
- i actually died during my last chemo. but when my spirit left my body, a "lady in white appeared, and told me to get back into my body, and said that i had something to do. she told me what it waS, BUT ONCE I RETUNED TO MY BODY, I FORGOT WHAT IT WAS. BUT I DO REMEMBER OTHER THINGS THAT SHE SAID. I HAVE SINCE FOUND OUT, THAT PEOPLE WHO ARE DYING HAVE BEEN HEAR TO SAY THAT THEY SAW A LADY IN WHITE. MY UNCLE, WAS ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE. BUT HE DIED, AS DID I, BUT SHE SENT ME BACK.
I SAE ONLINE, AFTER A GOOGLE SEARCH, MANY MENTIONS OF PEOPLE SEEING HER AS THEY DIE.
???
I DONT KNOW WHO SHE IS, BUT SHE IS THE EQUIVALENT OF THE GOG OF THE UNIVERSE, AND SHE HAS THE POWER TO BRING YOU BACK TO LIFE, AND HAS GREAT INTELLECT. PERHAPS, GOD..IS GODESS.. A FEMALE...